He always moans that I don't act like I trust him. Well I must do slightly to still be with him, after he has betrayed me 4 times.
Yesterday, I was thinking about the time, less than 10 months ago, I found out that he had slept with someone in our flat.
I think it's understandable that I still get upset about it.
I get upset about it about maybe once a week. Uusually, I generally just cry a bit, and wonder why he could do that and ask him why.
I don't shout, I just get upset.
I do't find this unreasonable.
But he thinks it is. I said to him that I will try stop doing it. but it's so hard. It's not even been a year.
Yesterday, I got a bit upset, because I saw he added one of his ex's to his friends list on facebook. I asked him if he had done anything else since, or before that I don't know about.
He said he hadn't, and he said he doesn't understand why I don't trust him yet.
I havent checked his facebook for 2 months. That shows some trust right?
Well, later on, I thought I'd look to see if this ex gf has messaged him on facebook.
I have his password, since apparently he has nothing to hide, and he shouldnt.
Well, turns out, on Monday and Tuesday (is thursday today), he messaged a woman with big tits on facebook stuff like: he thinks she has a nice body, and nice breasts, and she looks flexible, and he'd like her next to him with just underwear on so he can imagine her naked.
.... didn't he say to me earlier that there isn't anything else he's done that I should know about? and why don't I trust him yet?
I guess he's just proved my point. Yet again.
I must mean jack shit to him.
He's the only person in my life that has ever hurt me more than ANYONE. Even my worst enemy. I guess that must make him my worst enemy, or me- his, since he can do all of this to me.
